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I Miss You

Posted in Love Hurt Broen Promises with tags , , , on April 15, 2009 by codie0830

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It’s been a week today. Exactly a week and I haven’t heard from you. It cannot be the end. So abrupt and not expected. Our last conversation was 1.32am when you said “i love you”…

I dont know where you are, I dont know what you’re doing – if your suffering too the way I am. Are you thinking about me? Are you worrying about me? Do you even care still? So many questions left unanswered. I pray I see you soon. I need you, I need my sane self back. Not knowing and waiting is what kills me. This cannot be it. This cannot be the end. It was just the beginning. Or so I thought it was..

Our lives are always intertwined. I lost you once and I will not loose you again.  I refuse to not have you as part of my life – even though we cannot be anymore – I want you to understand how this silence has impacted my life. Im trying hard to get used to you not being around again. It’s hard. It is slowly killing me.

They say time heals all wounds. But right now the more I wait, the more I seem to want you, need you and love you. I don’t expect people to understand what I’m ranting about, but I hope you hear what my heart is telling you. What it is slowly whispering to you. I know you hear it.

I feel your abscence every day
And I think of words that I dare not say
I turn the pages to clear my mind
The silence helps but not all the time
I toss and turn in my empty bed
The scattered portraits fly through my head

Where did we go wrong?
God it’s been so long
Where did we go wrong?
God it’s been so long

I feel the pull like a ball and chain
I move ahead but it stays the same
Clenching my eyes from the lamplight
Stings my skin like mosquito bites
The pain is not what it seems to be
It’s crushing me with your memory

Where did we go wrong?
God it’s been so long
Where did we go wrong?
God it’s been so long

The probing hearts see through my mask
Wanting to know but they never ask
Sometimes when I try to fool myself
It seems so real even I can’t tell
The ache is there still to give me doubt
Maybe that’s what love’s about

Where did we go wrong?
God it’s been so long
Where did we go wrong?
God it’s been so long

We give and take but we don’t ask why
Who’s left to blame when my soul runs dry
The writing stares like it’s on the wall
The end is not what I want at all
A parting glance on your awful face
An image I will never erase

Where did we go wrong?
God it’s been so long
Where did we go wrong?
God it’s been so long “

We are destined. I believe it. Fate brought us together the first time and I know fate will bring us together again. U have to believe. U have to want the same thing.

So, please let me know what you want and which way you want to go.

I only have your last words to hold on to and to go by. I have nothing else. ”

And I didn’t even have a chance to say …

“I Love You too”